turning back??

2 weeks make me feel like 2 years...maybe i had been closely attached to you and being dependant on you too much for the past 6 months, it made me feel so uncomfortable and miserable when you're no longer around...

from the very basic thing which make me smile everyday is no longer there anymore..

first person i see when i open my eyes every morning,

worrying aircond too cold for you or might awake u with the door opening sound,

always looking forward to go home after class,

a smile from you turn my worst day to a bright one,

never fail to make me smile with every single litttle thing you did,

fighting to ask each other to decide where and what for dinner,

complaining i dont bath at night,

rushing each other to bed,

and the lame yet simple poking games before bed,

waiting for you to fall asleep to complete the night,

being the last person i see before closing my eyes...

all these no longer exist..

i hope it will not be lost forever...

i miss every bit of it...

i really doubt will things be the same after this??

maybe is time for me to get out of all these...

yet, i care bout you even though how many times i told myself you dont need me anymore...

it takes time maybe...

saw sth today which made me feeel like a fool for the past few years...

it takes 2 hands to clap and i guess this never exist for the past few years when we were apart...

looking back, im the only one trying to hold each other in touch..

maybe if i haven't been doing that, i will not fall in such situation....

can you tell me who am i to you and do i even deserve a place in your heart???

i hate myself when my heart is so soft whenever i see you and i broke all the promises i made to myself...

thats all i can do...will things be the same??

yes, i miss you...

do you miss me??

or did i ever cross your mind for a second???