FML!

fuck my life man!!!tried to finished some accounts ques but none of them i can do!!!it had been killing me since i was in f4..and yeah, now as well...am i supposed to continue this path??is this really what i want??After 6 months, what had i been doing????im doubting my decision now...seriously....what am i supposed to do?????????????????im so freaking lost now!!!!!!!!!must i let it kill me this way??or what else can i do??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????

是你还是我？

究竟是你变了还是我？？当初很管用的方法已对我产生反感了。。也许是分开一段时间了，你对我的态度已对我造成最大的伤害。。。我也真的想要放手了。。纠缠下去对你我她都不是好事。。也许是我自己太敏感了吧！！就当是我的错好了！！

答应了我与我去夜市，却用了一大堆理由来威胁我。。到底有何顾过我的感受。。如果你真的不想去告诉我就行了。。。我真的真的受伤了。。。。

究竟是你变了还是我变了？？从开始到现在，我的存在，你在乎过吗？？

the myth about me @taurus

#ZodiacFacts A #Taurus,virtues are common sense, loyalty, responsibility and a pleasant, non-hostile approach to others.

#ZodiacFacts #Taurus,are most suited to a practical career that brings with it a few surprises and plenty of money.

#ZodiacFacts #Taurus are solid and reliable, regular in habits, sometimes a bit wet behind the ears and stubborn as mules.

#ZodiacFacts Like Gibraltar, #Taurus is solid and steady and nothing disturbs their tranquility.

A #Taurus likes to accumulate power, along with cash, but simply for the sensual enjoyment of possessing it.

#ZodiacFacts A #Taurus would rather entertain hospitality at home than go to the trouble of visiting someone

#ZodiacFacts When it comes to a #Taurus you don't have to worry if you're not a perfect 10.

#ZodiacFacts #Taurus people not only like comfort for themselves but try to make others comfortable as well.

#ZodiacFacts A #Taurus, is very up-front about their life and about what and who they enjoy.

#ZodiacFacts Accept that a #Taurus stubborn streak is something that neither you nor anyone else could hope to change.

#Taurus,feel very emotionally tied to the physical objects that they own and loathe it when people are careless around them.

The great thing about a #Taurus is that it's easy to know what to expect from them, so they're not very hard to get along with.

its so true about you....

#ZodiacFacts #Cancers spend a good deal of time worrying about their families and, even more so, about money.

Where their own problems are concerned,#Cancers can disappear inside themselves and brood, which makes it hard for others to understand them. (im one of them trying to understand)

#ZodiacFacts #Cancers,are popular because they really listen to what others are saying. Their own voices are attractive too. (thats why so may ppl fallling for you)

#ZodiacFacts A #Cancer will remember all the wrongs done to them, they don't forgive and can't forget.

If you are wanting an answer from a #Cancer the longer they wait to answer the more probable the answer is no.

#ZodiacFacts #Cancer people will always avoid a definite yes or no.

#Cancers,are very reserved and sensitive, sympathetic and tenacious, persistent and impatient, impressionable and emotional. (very true)

#ZodiacFacts With a #Cancer,never try to joke about something they deem serious in order to make light of the situation. (experienced that :( )

#Cancers have a sense that they are difficult to understand and therefore appreciate when someone puts in the effort to figure them out. (hope i'll be the one)

我是真的想你了。。。

turning back??

2 weeks make me feel like 2 years...maybe i had been closely attached to you and being dependant on you too much for the past 6 months, it made me feel so uncomfortable and miserable when you're no longer around...

from the very basic thing which make me smile everyday is no longer there anymore..

first person i see when i open my eyes every morning,

worrying aircond too cold for you or might awake u with the door opening sound,

always looking forward to go home after class,

a smile from you turn my worst day to a bright one,

never fail to make me smile with every single litttle thing you did,

fighting to ask each other to decide where and what for dinner,

complaining i dont bath at night,

rushing each other to bed,

and the lame yet simple poking games before bed,

waiting for you to fall asleep to complete the night,

being the last person i see before closing my eyes...

all these no longer exist..

i hope it will not be lost forever...

i miss every bit of it...

i really doubt will things be the same after this??

maybe is time for me to get out of all these...

yet, i care bout you even though how many times i told myself you dont need me anymore...

it takes time maybe...

saw sth today which made me feeel like a fool for the past few years...

it takes 2 hands to clap and i guess this never exist for the past few years when we were apart...

looking back, im the only one trying to hold each other in touch..

maybe if i haven't been doing that, i will not fall in such situation....

can you tell me who am i to you and do i even deserve a place in your heart???

i hate myself when my heart is so soft whenever i see you and i broke all the promises i made to myself...

thats all i can do...will things be the same??

yes, i miss you...

do you miss me??

or did i ever cross your mind for a second???

it has been awhile...

suddenly feel like blogging because i feel like my blog had been dead for some time..but my class is supposed to be NOW but only 4 ppl here...where's everyone???hmmmm...let me jot down what i wanted to blog about..

1. teachers' day
2. opportunities

time to squeeze some brain juice out with the next 2 hours of economics... =) the only subject that interest me so far because it needs my brain to think!!!!

enjoying my last few weeks or only countable days with you....

how i wish it will not end... =(

cant you both just live happily???

memories last...

但愿海阔天空

an invisible wall

i don't like the way you push me away...

to actually create a border....

to create a distance...

i just dont like you ignoring me...

maybe im too sensitive...

but the feeling sucks... =(

雨天。。。

近来一个星期，老天爷必定准时落泪，发脾气。不是天打， 就是雷劈。到底是为了何事呢？不过，还蛮符合我的心情。迷迷蒙蒙的雨天，让我想了好多好多。我是不是应该坚持下去呢？想必这段关系真的好复杂哦！！！

我是以什么身份继续照顾’它‘呢？我觉得它再也不需要我了。但是，就是心太软，每次都不知不觉再次干涉，关心，保护。。。。。这星期还发生了不少事，它为它也不知道落了多少的泪，浪费了多少时间，憔悴了多少。。唉！我真的再也看不下去了。。但又能如何呢？毕竟我也不知道我在它心里的地位。。。

我对自己承诺，无论何时，我都不会让人为我伤心落泪。我看到了它受的伤害，真的让我心痛不已。好想过去安慰但又没勇气，毕竟是它们两人的事情，插手恐怕会弄巧反拙。真的不想看到它难过，但矛盾的是，他们和好了就轮到我悲哀了。也许是妒忌吧！是我从中解决但一旦解决了，我的存在好像也没价值了。。 =（

现在，我也不知道你们俩如何了，我也没兴趣知道了。我只会继续的保护你，守护着你，扮小丑都你开心我也无所谓，因为我只想看到你开心。你真不珍惜，我也没办法管太多了。。。

FULLSTOP

an awesome fullstop for my high school days after getting my SPM result slip... 11As..what else can i ask for???a ppl who played and enjoy most in school like me getting all As...hmmmm....awesome....

thx for all the wishes and future is lying ahead....i shall see what should be done at the moment... :) thanks for all support given to me as well....love u guys...

dull

i wonder do i have problem adapting with new environment??im really suffering over here...with the condition and alll....ughh!!!dont wanna take it anymore...is like the first week of secondary schoolll...wth!!!

sth came into my thought these few days as i was thinking reallly a lot...im thinking of really moving into government U if i gt it because i think i prefer the culture there instead of the people here...ugh!!!!

okay, and i dunno whats wrong??cant even talk face to face...must through text although being in the same room..ridiculous??after so many years and this happen..i really doubt whats going on between us...i really din expect it to be this bad...i know i should not count on you but stilll...okay, nvm...thats it la...dont wanna talk bout it anymore..

i wish im back in ipoh....i think i had made up my mind with what i want and where suits me best.. saying bye in 3 months time..i hope sth pop up and change my mind..i hope in these 2 more months, i'll change my mind...

:/

just don feel like talking....

emo... =.=

a new chapter of life...

alright...my first blog post from subang...just the 4th day being here but really bored till death...orientation which lasted for 3 days was not that satisfying after all...timetable's out...tight schedule starting after cny...now still alright la...

what i do here everyday i woke up or after class is facing my laptop...haiz...NO LIFE AT ALLL!!!!!!watching dvd everyday can finally let me catch up with all the dramas i missed cause of spm...haha...

the best thing is gt dai ga jie here to take care of me...haha...she is more like a mother...hmmm....lunch and dinner with her...crapping together...haha...thanks to her i wont rot till cendawan on me...haha...

so yeah...today i'll be free till sunday...next monday start lectures till wednesday 3pm and THATS IT!!!cny break starting...i miss ipoh's food.... :))

wait till i gt back to ipoh.... :P