lotsa lotsa lotsa work...

skul 2moro which im seriously NOT looking forward too...im kinda sked after the whole week which was like a night mare to me...im seriously being fear and wonder what else worst thing can happen to me...

im so dead...

2 essays not done-bm n eng

acc not done

moral tugasan harian not done

bio notes not done

no slip for 2nite i doubt...haiz...

signing out...

shoulders are heavy
heart is down
im wondering what am i feeling right now
with your absence
and im helpless
i hate the useless me

i hate it...

im hoping for a better tomorrow...

my 1st time...

many of my 1st time happened tis year to me after being in skul for about 4 years which i don think is sth to be happy about...

1. sick and was absent to skul for the 1st time.

2. kena dimerit for the 1st time.

3. kena srewed by almost all the teachers that teach us for the 1st time.

4. cried in skul for the 1st time.

5. being frustrated over that bullshit pig head idiot and exploded for the 1st time.

well, is more than enuff...is not a good year and it don suite the quote of 'SWEET SIXTEEN' at all...my life of f4 is such a doomed...IM HATING IT!!!

the UNLUCKY day...

history happens again...not mj is dead or sth else but is related to us @ 4s1...the whole day was full of nagging and scolding.im kinda pist off bout it...is like damm damm unreasonable...

addmaths was indeed fine and gonna be fine all the time...than, bm period started and unluckily wai n jing kena screwed...dunno la...haiz...than gt that 'debate' thing which was quite fun...haha...is jus so spontaneous...normaria came in and the laughter we used to have is no longer there...

bio kena nag by class teacher...she heard bout complains frm teachers and we know who is that that complained...n she says our class is noisy bt isnt that normal???last year we were quiet teachers said that we very passive tis year noisy they complain pulak...wat do they want actually???

moral she asked us to write all the definisi out...not suprised that most of us cant remember...watever...prepared to copy few hundred times...n the climax came...accounts period...unreasonably 9/10 of the class kena dimerit...don wanna explain further but jus...nvm...im gonna come out with words which i not suppose to if i write further...she is jus so unreasonable...mrslee, pls help us...i wanna drop accounts!!!

watched happry potter jus now...was kinda sleepy but i did tahan till it ends...went tui and the whole time me n wailynn were toking some deep issues which we usually dont...and we were complaining bout the same stuff...but it dont really bother me much la bout the dimerit thing...i don care...

the poem i wrote in 2min:

Life is miserable!

its getting worst day by day...

there's only downs but NO ups...

what's life all about???

IMPORTANT!!!

RANGERS MEETING TOMORROW:

TIME:8.30-10.30AM.

VENUE:KENYON COTTAGE

DRESS CODE:HALF U (t-shirt,long pants,black shoes,scarf and name tag)

sprained leg...

aiks...bad day bad day...freakingly sprained my left ankle!!!aiks...the story was like this :

Long long time ago....ooopsss...haha...serious a bit la...ish...

after skul suppose to have badminton meeting...than parents din get me lunch while they went for lunch be4 fetching me...aiks...act the 1st plan was go da bao rice from the shop opposite the hall bt ends up sitting dere and eat since they wanna meet their frens...

finished my rice darn fast not like i very hungry but running out of time...than dad brought me cross the road instead of driving cause he said tats further...so get my racquets and my cloths and we start crossing...

that part gt his road divider beside the road where there were thousands of cars passing by...than when cars get less, we getting ready to cross...as i step down the road divider, I SPRAINED MY ANKLE!!!!

i can actually hear my bone 'prak' gosh....darn pain!!!cant tahan, i squad at the road side tahaning...goodness...when i sat down, only i realise that the road is uneven...the roadside is steep down...bullshit them...cant they jus make the road flat???

went badminton and i cant play also...ish...stupid...played also i stand dere and wait for the shuttle to come towards me...tsktsk...on the way back my dad was teasing non-stop...gosh...so mean...

dad:i don und how come can fall la...like melintas jalan macam ayam...

me:i din even cross the road yet...i cant see the uneven part mer...

dad:i also cross how come i din fall arr??

me:....

dad: i gt 2 eyes you also gt 2 eyes how come i can see you cant arr???

me:ishishish...

darn mean...evil dad...

pain la...is darn pain...act planned not to go skul 2moro cause i know i cant walk properly as it seriously hurts...bt too bad 2moro gt chem peka la...if not i can go ask my doctor uncle to help me adjust back my bone...my ankle swells and its red now...haiz... =(((

14TH JULY 2009 =))

actually is jus a normal day but dunno la...haha...the class was as usual la...today's subjects, i realised :

kai don und accounts...
kai hate civics teacher...
kai love probability...
kai hate statistics...
kai is kinda confused with chemistry...
kai love cutting newspapers...

and we got to know that our skul earned RM40000++ for the BALLET CONCERT!!!gosh...great success man...haha...tats y our skul is renovating everywhere...n i hote that the skul will have a basketball court!!!mrslee!!!!

eng period, teacher went for some hospital appoitment...n we were given work to do of course...haha...very fun actually...bel and su were fighting all the time...bullshit them...wonder how they sit together...haha...but we managed to finish it..and it was not bad...the killing part was we need to cut our names word by word from the paper...ughhh....

the deskmates...

R-A-C-I-A-L U-N-I-T-Y =))

my poor deskmate...haha...

$$$

this suits the situation better...i jealous you touches big amount of money everyday...

all the best ya...

good luck =))

weekend

anugerah yesterday...and naz din turned up..i was calling her and we were waiting for her the whole morning...but she's not here...haiz...noone knows wats going on...saddening...so the hang out was cancelled and i went back la...

after eating i slept without bathing...was practically tired after the whoile morning of standing since 7 in the morning...wth...gt inteyo meeting at 3 but i woke up at 3...haha...after bathing i went out...it was about 3.30 when i reached...saw ivy dere...gosh...i miss her!!!mabel having session tats y cant hug hug that time...

than mabel taught us the skills lo...feelings are natural....like river...flow down-stream...cannt damm...is neither rational or irrational...neither right or wrong....lol...every1 can remember...had dinner from maya corner as usual...the fried rice and the egg also TASTELESS...gosh...meeran found tomato sauce...pity him cant finish the tasteless rice...haha...

night session was nice...as i expected since last week...lifeline and sharing...gosh...thats the most difficult part compare to other physical or mental training...not easy but now im used to it...inteyo is the place of no secret and to cry... =)) so lifeline...few ppl shared and we asked questions and summarize...skills in camp la...

than was the sharing part...gosh...i din get to cry out much la...maybe im really used to it adi...compare to the 1st faci sharing tears are pouring out from my eyes even not my own story...empathy mer... =)) our group was fantastic...one person tok soooo long till not enuff time so me n jia min no need tok...let taiping ppl..kinda happy bout that la...shhhh...

than we got HUGZZZ...whow!!wonderful...it was so nice...hug everyone as if we were a family...even at home we dont hug...is a great time to nurture yourself to collect some positive strokes....wonderful...slept at around 2.30a.m...inteyo time...haha...

suppose to wake up at 6.15 for hike at kledang...but till 7 everyone was still sleeping...haha...so i slip also la...meeran came and told no hike so =))) slip la...haha...than texted yhung and she said they coming 7.30...lol...we were still sleeping till she came in with the annoying mosquito sound...lol...everyone was awake...we did the roti canai..diy...haha...

session started at 9++...trust walk...me and meeran were blind-folded and in same group...our faci is ivy...haha... when im blind-folded, ppl tickling me everywhere...my hair gt mess up, they poking my waist stomach and stuff...gosh...started the trust walk...me n meeran bullied ivy la...cause we know the place well and we know where we are...she wanted to direct us into the toilet we purposely walked elsewhere...in the hall, we walked ourself find the bench and sit down...haha...she actually called mabel so both of us stand up immediately and shouted FACI, WHERE ARE U??haha...cool huh???

after that we got another round of HUGZZZ session...more ppl this time...and is just so nice...thats the session everyone of us looking forward la...haha...cause you will feel cared and loved...wonderful...with the letting go music somemore...tho the atmosphere is different from camp but still...haha...

went back around 11.30...so was kinda tired d la...slept awhile than lunch and i went for art lo... =)) dinner at menglembu in some yunnam food restaurant...nice...chem tui jus now...so on comp for essay and i steal some time to keep my blog alive... =))

wish you all the best
i know u can do it
with all the blessings i gave
nothing is impossible
experince a new life
since you're OLDER
time to earn money
looking forward to see you
and i wanna say
I MISS YOU =P

Hari Anugerah Cemerlang

ermm is actuallty today since is 1sth now...yeah, gonna be a great day i hope...many ex-students wil be coming back to receive their certs and MONEY!!!n miserably, i hope the money for PMR will be more than 10...or not it will be so ridiculous going skul on sat at 7 in the morning jus to receive 5 bucks or maybe less...LOL...

and the guess of honour this time wil be our skul ex-principal...according to ppl, she is a old lady and she hav difficulty in walking...so make sure you help her properly...btw how could they actually ask the most heartless ppl to help her???i wonder... =))

AND

AND

AND

NAZ IS COMING BACK!!!!

oh gosh...naz, I MISS YOU!!!

su is not here...lol...poor thing...

hope that our hang out will work out 2moro...cant wait to see you!!!haha...

this year's hari anugerah ALL PREFECTS involved...maybe cause the perbarisan was cancelled...n remember all wear RED arr!!! hav to reach skul at 7.10 to sign in...gosh...it is a saturday le....saddening...lucky im receiving sth or not i will scream my head off...

afternooon ada training...lol...hope to see taiping ppl...esp ivy...haha...than i guess i gonna stay overnight with you ppl...hehe...than we can have the whole night and morning to chat chat and chat... =))

so tats all for now...gonna go pack for 2moro...tho i slept jus now bt im sleepy again...haiz...

peace

all i need in my mind now is some peace and calmness...im being distracted by too many things before this and it can be said it had all been settled...im free and i realised i need to relax and give some space to my brain to let go everything...to take a break be4 continueing again...

i wish im here...

PEACE =))

appreciate

report card day

it finally came...haha...early morning head prefect kita.....haha...if you know than laugh...dunno than jus continue be blur la...haha...of all days this kind of thing happen today...lucky her...

continue the bk quiz thing la...than duty started around 10.50 with pn chan's instruction...requested not to wear blazer cause i know it will be darn hot...she was giving me her evil look with her evil smile and say okay lar...lol...haha...

walked throughout the skul esp the f5 classes which are at the other end of the passage gate ant the other end of skul...gosh...i dunno very lucky or unlucky almost all kena f4 and f5 classes...gosh...sweat like mad...the usual me la sweating non stop like jus shower...haha...

and tis year cham lo...no water supply...haha..canteen cant give plastic bags and pn chan jus gave 10bucks to buy water...gosh...shiyun sponsor some la...head prefect mer...n she darn rich somemore...nvm la...so our station gt 4 bottles of pop for more than 10 ppl..haiz...pityful....

parents came around 1.20...waited awhile than my turn la..she said i am a potential straight a student...i was like WOW! funny...than she said i am sensible and stuff...i don think she can comment much on us also lo...one week 4 periods of her class ni...as if she knows us well...haha...

went the new foh san for lunch...dim sum..haha...darn nice lo their new place...darn big somemore...haha...bt maybe we are late thats why food are limited liao...haha...nvm, at least can fill my darn hungry stomach...lol...

station 2's property...

my own propert...

n yeah...CHIPSMORE...kejap ada kejap takde...lol...
pn nur aini gave me tis...thanks ya lots... =))